earthquake...my life...

okay...well.....my life..hmmm..
wat can i say now?
IT REALLY SUCKS~!
well...my frens told me tis...
"yes..ur condition is bad..but just think of those eathquake victim...u r way way better then them.."

yea..i'm not as bad as them...

to tell da truth...dunno know why..but when i saw the news in paper..

seeing those lil children get buried by stones and watever...my tears dropped down...i cant control myself and i ..CRIED...

i asked myself.."why r u crying??" but i cant find the ans... izzit becoz i'm a teacher b4..so i cant see those children hurt and even die just like dat?? o wat else??? i dunno y..but my tears just dropped..

i know the value of a life... dat's y i m down....

i asked myself..y god wanna play such a game to me..but now i know~~~HE is playing even to a small child...they dunno anything...just went to school for study..but by the end...tis happen..

and yea...back to myself...everyday..just a new day for me....without any hope o wat... just yea..i hv to keep going on....DUN STOP HY...i'm telling myself tis again and again..cz if i stopped..i'll break down..and nw...wat else can i do?? it edy back to me...and getting worst i guess...so yea...how can i go on?? i just wan a normal life..but i just cant get it...

wat i hope for now?? i dunno... just.. i rather give up everything then goin to dat place anymore~!! i cant take it...no more a THIRD time for me... i promised sumone to keep on fighting..yea..i promised..but dear..i dunno i can do it o not..cuz...i really losing my gut to keep going on.... i tried to be strong..but inside of me..there's a voice is so so so weak.... it keep on ask me to just give up...

haih..well...dunno wat else i can do edy... just hope everything will be okie... the fear is getting to me again... who can help me out?!?!? haih...

我可以。。。每天睁开眼都看到一样的蓝天吗？？